Hospital

Mom’s back in the hospital again, and just like always I haven’t quite figured out how to deal with it. I kept myself busy tonight with work projects, and I have a splitting headache, but I don’t think I want to sleep. I’ll probably sit in bed for a few hours before I get some sleep. Since she’s going to have her surgury sooner than she’d hoped, she’ll probably miss the walk on the 6th, which means a lot to her. Dad said they had to admit her to control the pain she’s been having; I guess it really flared up in the last few days.

I’ll write more when I know more. I’m just getting sick of this constant roller-coaster ride we’re all on. I suppose it’s selfish for me to think that way, because she’s the one who has to deal with the cancer. It’s just frustrating to me because I miss her… I miss the way she used to be.